I am always, I am infinite I waited so long for this I tried so hard, I saw it all I drank the blood, I’m immortal No more a man but still the same skin Still the same person within I always heal, but the pain remains I still feel guilty all the same I am without future, I am without closure Trapped in this void for eternity I’ve tried to reach the endless light Instead all I found was the darkest lie How long ‘til I see the ones I love Maybe my hope will die someday Trying so hard not to feel love It’s not really living my way Everything is possible Because I have, played this game I stop aching,then repeat the cycle I stop aching,then repeat the cycle My only option is suicide Through all this mess, I never tried I don’t know why, I don’t understand I don’t want my life to end The joys of life, they still exist My memories, they still exist Is the price justified Is the pain, justified I am without future, I am without closure Trapped in this void for eternity I’ve tried to reach the endless light Instead all I found was the darkest lie How long ‘til I see the ones I love Maybe my hope will die someday Trying so hard not to feel love It’s not really living my way My legacy, my greatest gift Through what I leave, I’ll still exist This life, over In the end I find closure My legacy, my greatest gift Trough what I leave, I’ll still exist My time, to die Time to let go Just let go

Searching for release Searching for an escape from all those who fake their way all through life A perfect hypocrisy, A broken sanity Feels so warm in this Prison, don’t lie to yourself because you are Guilty, i see your soul i see your hate How could you not realize all the effects this has on somebody No trust, no real love, just sadness, madness, constant state of distress Move forward Let it all go, relearn all you know, restart it all Plead guilty For the fraud you have been all these years Don’t be a slave anymore Heart so full of lies Heart so full of hate Cut the leash, you’ve let it define you Now start again Move forward Let it all go, relearn all you know, restart it all Plead guilty For the fraud you have been all these years Don’t be a slave anymore Look in the mirror What do you see inside The slave or the owner Of your own mind I was once, just like you I was lost in the dark An empty void in my heart Couldn’t really feel my soul sinking I stopped to search, then I found Removed my head from the ground And started to turn my life around The world scared me to death Everything felt like a threat Afraid that I would die alone With solace comes a price Who’ll stay’s a roll of the dice But don’t be afraid to be a small head in the crowd Underneath the veil, we all fight the same fight The fight of life. Look in the mirror What do you see inside The slave or the owner Of your own mind Look in the mirror What do you see inside The slave or the owner Of your own mind

Sickened to the bone We've never waited so long For a moment of truth that would be hurting us this much Confined to live in our heads In our deathbeds We want to break through We're messengers but we don't know yet Inside this vault is suffering some prophets Vulnerable and innocent We'll be trapped by claustrophobia We said we won't give up But do we really want to go in there? Our heart is our own fear We feel it shrinking from danger We said we won't give up Bring us the light Bring us this fight Give a us a situation where we can survive We're messengers but we don't know yet And now we're starting to believe that this is what we get when The odds are in favor of what's inside our mind and our heart But yet we can't feel it or even touch it It's irritating to concede victory to something livin' inside of you Somehow it feels brand new Vulnerable and innocent We'll be trapped by claustrophobia We said we won't give up But do we really want to go in there? Our heart is our own fear We feel it shrinking from danger Surrounded by darkness Haunted by happiness Vulnerable and innocent We'll be trapped by claustrophobia Our heart is our own fear We feel it shrinking from danger We said we won’t give up

And I might not recognize Everything that I’ve ever built Pulverized my own surroundings Just to feel that I’m not the guilty one for once Gravity My remedy When my head is in the clouds Sometimes I look to the sky and I smile Not ashamed of the mistakes I made along the way Buying happiness And believing my fate is in their hands I don’t want to be anything That they want me to be I’ll never want to be nothing Over and over again Don’t try to pull me under All of you are forbidden strangers Sometimes I look to the sky and I smile Not ashamed of the mistakes I made along the way Buying happiness And believing my fate is in their hands I’m cold blooded But I ache for this destruction My skin is swallowing my lost soul Tried to defy gravity My soul is swallowing me Tried to take my life away You won’t take it away from me

Why is it that time will heal Is it just that we forget We don’t allow ourselves to feel and not regret I bury my pain, to run away from my mistakes Feel the weight of all the choices I don’t make Tried so many times to fight uncertainty Wish I had strength to say no I feel I tried a thousand times I feel I tried a thousand times before Did I mistake apathy for wisdom Did my restraint keep me from growing I’ve let my strength become my weakness Please don’t give up on me, I won’t give up on me My hope became my misery An emptiness inside of me and I’m the only one to blame My life is mine to reclaim Action instead of reaction Is the key to all of this, but it’s all easier said than done I will try Accepting defeat, not rejecting Is the only way to strive, the only way to feel alive I will try Tried so many times to fight uncertainty Wish I had strength to say no I will try a million more I will try a million more

Teach me how to resist what I crave And to deny what I seek Stop me now and try to heal my disease Heal my poisonous way of thinking Kiss me goodnight Out of my sight You're the wrong side Thank you and enjoy your ride Pull the trigger I'm rising from the dead Pull the trigger This isn't over Why don't you come and join the fun? And give back what you thought was yours But don't run away I swear I'll stop but I can't let that sink in Give back what's mine now I won't bow Tell me you knew about the aftermath It's such a shame That the world we live in Can't handle me Can't normalize my heavily screwed spirit You didn't pull the trigger I'm living as if I was dead Why not pulling the trigger? This is over Why don't you go fuck yourself? And give back what you thought was yours But don't run away I swear I'll stop but I can't let that sink in Give back what's mine now I won't bow Tell me you knew about the aftermath I bid you farewell, honey Just sold my soul to my newly developed addiction Is it a crime if I say I'm sorry? Of course I'm not and you know it Let me just annihilate you. Run like hell I'm having too much fun right now No damn white flag That's silly to think I'll show any mercy Give back what you thought was yours But don't run away I swear I'll stop but I can't let that sink in Give back what's mine now I won't bow Tell me you knew about the aftermath

LOST Never felt so lost Something always isn’t right Why can’t I enjoy what I used to love the most? My future was so bright This mess in my mind, this pain in my heart Am I losing control? Everything I see is an illusion Everything I feel is real ANXIETY Never felt so scared Why can’t my mind be sparred? Like every fear deep down below came back to the surface Unwanted thoughts can't be erased Obsessions consume me Will I ever be free? Will it ever end? Everything I see is an illusion Everything I feel is real I must get through the process And forgive me I won't forget the days I felt hopeless My new reality Only in acceptance I shall move forward I spend so much time trying to fix things when in reality I need to let things go I guess it’s hard when you feel like a stranger inside yourself I allow storylines to play on a loop in my mind When in reality they have no basis I want life to be as I think it should be rather than as it is I took everything for granted Until it was gone My illness left me looking pale and drawn I must get through the process And forgive me I won't forget the days I feel hopeless My new reality I need to let the old structure crumble to the ground and start anew I cannot build anything healthy on a faulty foundation I strongly believe the absolute breakthrough in life lies just beyond the darkest days

Should've stayed. Were there signs I ignored? Can I help you not to hurt anymore? We saw brilliance when the world was asleep There are things that we can have but can't keep If they say Who cares if one more light goes out In the sky of a million stars? It flickers, flickers Who cares when someone's time runs out If a moment is all we are? Or quicker, quicker Who cares if one more light goes out? Well, I do The reminders pull the floor from your feet In the kitchen one more chair than you need Oh And you're angry, and you should be, it's not fair Just 'cause you can't see it, doesn't mean it isn't there If they say Who cares if one more light goes out In the sky of a million stars? It flickers, flickers Who cares when someone's time runs out If a moment is all we are? Or quicker, quicker Who cares if one more light goes out? Well, I do Who cares if one more light goes out In the sky of a million stars? It flickers, flickers Who cares when someone's time runs out If a moment is all we are? Or quicker, quicker Who cares if one more light goes out? Well, I do Well, I do

We've been left astray, by leaders with violent ways Waiting to be awakened From this insanity Another day, another moment passing Another second of this whole world crumbling Time is up, Time to rise No more feeling compromised Got no clue of how to make this happen Just sick of this like all of you Lead the charge, lead the way For the only thing I know to be Truth! Our goal's within our reach Truth! A resilient enemy Rise, now is our time to save the world Caught in this cycle, they stand between me and you Rise, now is our time to save the world A fight for something new Claiming no innocence, they chose not to know Blood clogging their own eyes, not aware they're hypnotized Memories, tainted, punishment, imminent, no second thought Violent, worthless, existence, a false messiah. A resilient enemy Rise, now is our time to save the world Caught in this cycle, they stand between me and you Rise, now is our time to save the world A fight for something new War, we came so far, that's who we are Pray death won't be for nothing Not forgotten ----- Run The noise is deafening, the screams from the bloodshed A cause, a fight, a life of suffering rewarded It's not my war Is the enemy in front me or beside me Mesmerized, Paralyzed Bygone's the time to change my mind, Betray my brothers with nowhere to hide Whatever i choose, i'm going to lose How have I always been so blind So many days, spent without question So many lives spent for no one This battle is done, it's my decision My brothers put away your guns Un capitaine des forces armées canadiennes a cessé toute communication avec l'état major. Lui et ses soldats seront accusés de désertion et seront convoqués devant la cour martiale. Betrayed, your country Betrayed, your family You are a failure DESERTER I now walk this path alone A stranger to myself and everything I’ve ever known I’ve dragged the ones I love with me Thought it would set me free Yet I don’t know where I belong I now walk this path alone Waiting to be saved I now walk this path alone Waiting to be saved Will resilience be enough WE STAND, WITH YOU UNTIL THE END MY FRIEND, ONE DAY THEY’LL UNDERSTAND So many days, spent without question So many lives spent for no one This battle is done, it's my decision My brothers put away your guns So many days, spent without question So many lives spent for no one Through our difference, we become stronger We can face it all, We can face it all Now is our time to save the world